I’ve been MIA. Just trying to get back on my feet. Life tends to side swipe me now and then and i tend to be humbled and grow in ways i never thought possible…i’ll explain.

A dear friend dies, and brother to my best friend (I’m part of the family) and i learn to cherish every moment and have no regrets.

Every time i get sick I’m some how humbled in a strengthening way (if that makes sense).

I woke up today and could barley walk. Something happened to my back. Definitely a joint thing, research says disk pinching nerves. With ulcer history i can’t take anti-inflamitories so i ate any food i had in my house that had natural anti-inflammatories and sure enough broccoli relived the pain for a few hours. Ok, not the point but suddenly in the middle of pain i realize that i can change. I can be a much more positive person…solution oriented, optimistic, accepting and loving of everyone, and just plain happy. Why the heck not. (yes i say heck, i’m from Utah that just how we talk here, oh and Holy Cow is another weird one)

Weight Gain
What? Yes, I’ve been avoiding the subject until i realized that most of my friends here on this site would completely understand and actually relate. I know exactly how i got where I’m at. I am officially addicted to chocolate and have only been exercising 1-2 times per week. I know I’m still in the “healthy” category but either way when the jeans start giving me the muffin top to the point that i either need new jeans or hoodies to hid it then i need to stop procrastinating and get back to healthy.

Here we go. Hot at 28…why wait till 30 to have a great body. I know I’m happiest when exercising every day and that is the one thing that keeps my serotonin in check which i genetically don’t produce very well.

For now I’m just waiting to see if my back gets worse or better. Using lots of heat, gentle stretching, and broccoli/healthy food/chocolate for pain =)

Grateful Life Happens
Welp, life happens, and it sure happens for a reason and I’m so great full for a mother that thought me to grow from it rather than let it get you down. Yes many of us have stretchmarks from growing via trials but honestly I’m grateful for mine. Tragedy…no destiny. All part of the plan, destiny, karma, fate… you name. It all plays a part of who i am.

Yes. I’m still a live. A good friend of mine passed suddenly in a ancient. I’ve been in Boston and just got back. All is well and i fell more motivated than ever to start living every day to fullest. It was actually the most humorous funeral i have ever been too. A major part of that had to do with the sense of humor my friend had. Lets just say it was the only viewing i’ve been to where they were wearing sun glasses.

I need to be exercising every day. Not so i look good but so i can keep my mind healthy and stress levels low etc. Lots of reason but will reasons motivate me to do what needs to be done. Nope, honestly they wont. Yea they might for a week max but not for very long.

What will motivate me for the next 3 months?
Surfing
Rock climbing
New Jeans
Running
Getting My Physical Trainers license
10,000

Ok money motivates me the most. I’m going to check ans see if BFL has another challenge this year and go for it again.

Hope you all enjoyed your new year.

What motivates you?